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siang & malem ini habis bertemu seorang teman kampus..
dari mereka gw dapet banyak cerita baru, yang bner2 br bgt gw denger..
ternyata skrg apapun yg gw lakukan ga akan ngubah keadaan..yah, it's to late..
bener yg dia bilang.. kemana aja gw, yah..kemana...kenapa pas sekarang gw br tersadar..
kenapa setiap langkah yg gw ambil itu selalu salah ya..kalo ngga, ya..terlambat...

makin gw tau ternyata semakin gw pedih ngebayanginnya..
ya allah, kenapa wktu itu gw dengernya dia udah jadian ya ma org lain, sampe gw mutusin buat ngedeketin org lain jg...pdhl knyataannya saat itu dia masih nunggu gw,dan sikap gw..arghhh,brengsek tuh yg kasih info !!

ternyata, karena gw deketin org lain itu, yg justru ngebuat dia..semakin jauh dr gw..
ga tau knp, lgsng kebayang ekspresi sedihnya (yg demi allah gw ga mau bgt liat) pas tmen gw crita ttg hal itu...atau wktu denger pas lg table manner??
ah bangsat..knp wktu itu msti bgitu critanya..

mungkin skrg dia emang ga pntes buat gw, gw udah terlalu kejam ma dia..udah sering bgt nyakitin perasaannya...
hmm..maaff..maafffff bgt...gmn ya caranya biar bisa nebus dosa gw ini...gmn..msti gmn...
maaf, br sadar degan semua ketololan gw selama ini..entah apa yg ada dipikiran gw saat itu..
skrg cm bs pasrah aja dengan semua kenyataannya..,

it's time for listen to a perfect song,,

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
.....

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
....

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
....

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
.....

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
....


did i must give up..or just to be patient...i don't know for sure...
i just want to sorry...